17 August 2012

Grok





the temporary rhizome
spreads leafless tranquil
over Rocky Mountain up drafts

dirt switch back
gravel pack rats make camp

rustle with squirrels

nag chomp head wind
hatch the dawn

comes from the West.

oaky morning brew
joe on the balcony
smiling at the yellow horizon

purple ribbed jewel
of the sun

            negligent            careless
            of the known—

do not matter

                        when fall begets
                        my burlap back sap

nature’s tap
on my cold weather still

grinds the grizzly gone to Wyoming
lumberjack passes

between and under mountains

crick simple
mouth water
and candle

sage, time            red ribbons
wrapped about its body

bread                         to suffer

burning castle wood
rock and clay—

i eat Earth intravenous

silver hibiscus liquid
Mercury, Mars
and Venus

my mother, between us
and the sun.

be at peace
and lay down beside me
when you are 20 hours away—

this last clock                        square
on the mantle

and in my parent’s kitchen
in Maryland

                        the same one here
and what does it say?

the laws of man
                          are suspended
in the pale Milky Way
                          bowing to the night

subtle candor
                        blinking barely
at the soft swatch of hair
straying from my habit—

the last thing i want
is to be left here
when the cold drum comes
to pound parade ranks
down our Berlin guns.

mountains bud their berry canyons

raccoons sweep their patios
     clean their paws

hands, with opposite thumbs
to unlock the front door

is sideways—
                        this end up

because            pipe lines
            are fragile.

rachet the hatches
and seal down the mattress
to the cold metal floor

the studio, the cabin
the cave in which to hibernate

sunder heartily
the winter

the sun                                the snow
            break through

the fog                         of Clydesdale horses

triumphant
                        in our broad wools
knitted hooves
                        cradle cobblestones
over dead bone cobwebs

closets                        and ancestors
wrapped up in the basement

the soot fireplace

resilient                        stalwart
fortress                        blue

cement building blocks
mark the eye from the dirt long driveway

Douglas Fir pinecones
open from the Fort Collins fire

50 miles away

black smoke rings
laced with moth wing
and moon rocks.

Mary unlocks the fetters
on my toadstool brain

sends rain down the canyon
to fill up the valley
b‘fore we can flood ourselves out to be saved.

Sacrum




deep in the Earth
where spirits go to die

no white men are allowed

but they invited him
to speak of sinking cities

the mountain range
a lotus open for ages

dragon blood
seaweed

clots the north shore
redder                       

silver fish shoals
wink

at the north star

the asteroid belt
a blasted planet

whose inhabitants
mine us for gold
and semen

Stonehenge
Bermuda Triangle

negative energy
ions tossed objectively

into granite quarry.

[untitled]


life doesn’t mean much here.

18 killed             in a holy
                  hall of worship—

when does your self
come into your time?

hung up             on divine chores,
damp                         from the drying line.

whenever you listen
you don’t disregard—

you acknowledged me
with hands
behind
my back

lumbar support—
maybe i’m rooting my heels in today.

did you see that?

you thought
it was getting darker
and then the porch light comes on.

make ultimate statements
about beauty
if you want

can you qualify it?
                                  quantify

dervish fireflies
in the mood dark

breadth                        archaic
in its countryside.

another glass moon
passes through the shadow

word and light
stomp the roof.

life doesn’t mean much here.

the mountains’ power
 the patch
 of the sea

shining glory
passing defeat
on the yellow brick freeway—

the cause of living
in the past
is dying in Richmond.

Somalian mothers
clutch babies
       demand justice

       to be not forgot

never repeat
the same song.

corn refuses to grow
in Jamestown—

ask why?

now

do i still speak
in a room full of men—

i can’t make
the torch fire

i can’t smile
his perverted chin religion

he smites my strength

a squirrel in a blender

screeching                         screwdriver
electric                         phrastick
            red ruby guitar—

more                        is Jesus
down God’s fated stairway
to speak to us

in prostrate humiliation—
this is not the way.

my Father            
would have me leave you

tattoo your bone marrow
in hieroglyph pennies—

out                                                I love you,
life doesn’t mean much here.

[untitled]


No more poetry—
all this creative nonsense
makes me want to break shit.

Roark in the stone quarry
Dominique, the jackhammer
on her fireplace hearth

the open window
her father listens in
secretly enjoying
the sound of his daughter’s moans

crying over self             abandon—

wreck me
beat me
I crave your attention
like a sheep

a woman
defeated—I’ve lost
the theme on purpose

I’m sick of sticking to the single stream.

Why do I care if you misunderstand me?

I’m an asshole
and you’re a dick—

it became this thing with him
where he stopped asking permission.

I was a wrench
never saying no
because it might hurt him—

do you know
why you cannot come
to my back door?

The screen was busted out
long before I met you
caressed you longing
that you might read my mind
and hold me a little more—

I don’t care what God does.
I am not Him.

Punctuation is litter—
I like it.

I toss cigarettes, lit
out the window—
fuck the fire ban

hazard
warning—this other knockoff
Jim Morrison thinks I want him
like a cat in heat,
some such masculine bullshit—

take your gunpowder
and semen
and shove it
where the sun dies.

I am sick of lying beggars
who try too hard
and ask me twice for change—
I will still say no.

I want to put my head
through the cement
in Roark’s bedroom.

I am her, laughing at myself
my position within this
perceived world of dominance
men                        and churches
monuments            to phallacy—

I want to wrecking ball
the halls of Congress

poetic terrorism
in Boulder alleys
where trust fund kids
graffiti shitty replicas
of gang tags—

how much did those kicks cost
and do you know why
you throw them over the power lines?

You will never kill anyone.

for boulders




the matrix is frakking
earth’s curvature
perpendicular
to my drumless wail.

i have ten days
to learn how to throw lightning—

you have to peel it off your chest first.

the rest of the verse
will be squandered
on red wine and humans

our delusion
            muted
on God’s mantelpiece

a black and white photo frame—

freeze—the anticipation
makes me nauseous.

house me in the museum
next to the Hope Diamond.

there is nothing natural
about our history—

why do men buy it?

white bread sliced bread
baker’s dozen
and we’re still complaining—

the matrix is fracturing.

i like to kiss you forcibly
in front of stodgy old people

shake the table
scatter glass on murder

make matchsticks
out of Civil Rights

men on their bikes
on their way to work

pedal pedal pedal pedal pedal
stem step stomp       on my petals
         crush me

a dry sunflower
wreath of marigold

hangs from my rearview
precipitous               rain fall
up the canyon
every time                I drive
to see the old doctor wise

at Shovel Ranch
free tarot reading.

can you teach someone how to speak?

Salve Regina,
O Maria

Mary Magdalene,
Saint Margaret’s Catholic Church
on Main Street Sunday pavement.

i don’t want to close my ideas
and bow my head to pray—

i would lift my eye
out of socket,

burn my pockets,
red thread and whiskey.

Mother Mary, do not forsake me,
pray for me, now, and at the hour
of my first-born’s conception—

nine months to be born still
would be my righteous come-uppance
for all the good Godly men
i felt sail the Horn of Africa

for the Indian Colony,
American tyranny—
o modern imperialism
why can’t you leave me?

i relinquish all ownership
carry the responsible weight
that is mine as woman to bear

in nomine Patris
et Filii
et Spiritus Sancti

Gabriel tears off
his blue button down
in the stage lights—

where are his hands now, Mother?

we don’t have time
for my words here

not in this gallery

not in this hall
of fogart
and fine art—
         who says?

Why would I follow you here?




The young man shouts
about abstract revolution.

I try to tune in
but my ear is not faithful.

What is it?

I missed the beginning
and he’s on number nine
and I still haven’t figured out
what he’s talking about.

Stream of consciousness
can be dangerous
when there are no parameters.

I would know: I followed
you here, see you
at the far end of the café

disappointed as well, you are
staring out the window
at Buchannan’s coffee pub
across the street,

the Colorado college buffalos
talking to their Tuesday night
Constantinoples.

Could we go to the mountain tonight
and sleep in the attic?

Escape the dirty fume,
frustrating—ed.

Sign




Johnston is murdering
guitars tonight—

needs to fix his banjo.

Windmill,





what veil have I?

Water sweeps
down the drain pipe—

push the leaves
out of me

dead and brown—

            impasse.

I have tobacco
in my meth.

Boulder, California
surfs the snow
all summer.

White water horses
race Sisyphus—

what are you doing?

Anthony walks
on the shore,

Cleopatra’s ashes
in his hands.

sonnet 1




a sonnet never speaks a song so clearly as a dream
a widow’d peak, central speak the dragon’s old grim rhyme
opera trance and wicked stance of sickles in the yard.
in back room wicker dances, witches incant vacant lots,
doctors, lost, without whiskey to cure their hogwarts—
pickled toad stew, monkey brains, and cornmeal gruel
make the seven sins into sister twins, hybrid gems
of the fourth realm, divine, coyote wind chime machine.
in daylight, heaven rejects the notion of self wareful
in exchange for copper break lights—who is in handcuffs? 
a string of conscious nods pass between two neighbors,
benign, to their own host benefit—r’member, to prelude
your statements with relevant information.  the language
of my youth is not portuguese, italian, aurora borealis.

03 August 2012

Grace




sitting with you by the river
i had a vision of us
as elderly

still wrapped in one another—

            do you think the water gets attached?

i’m talking about molecular emotive

            where water meets itself
            in the spiraling void
            of trash vomit

                        some bum bottle
                        spinning counter-clockwise
                        in the midst of all chaos
                        churning purple grey

                                    the color precisely of clouds
                                    before an eastern storm.

it’s humid here inside of me

            the forest bellowed inward
            because you are a mountain range

                        your shoulder blades
                        the dragon head

                        the end of its tail
                        tied to my spine—

it feels as if i have known you
for a very long time.

the summer is closing
upon our old faces

sinking down between the laughs
crinkled in our crows feet

            developed
            pronounced
            from the steeple chase—

that’s god spitting on you.
the rain is not the angels—

            why did jesus weep?

                        he saw lazarus
and his mother’s birth pain
and he takes on the suffering
of the world—

            i am not a christian
            but the rhythm
            of mass
           
                        spread                        out

over decades                        of sacrificial blood

wine poured down a marble staircase
leaves a memory
of satan’s place in our hearts.

hindu cows are calm
before a crash landing

oxygen masks detached
from the plastic landfill.

            you will chop wood

            i will carry water

            we will plant a garden

                        i want to have corn—
                        is the climate suitable in colorado?

you look forward to winter

chickory            huck                        and alpine.

the meadow echoes
our neighbors closest
40 acres
sing to our children—

            is it strange that i have known you
            for 20 years?

today we are young
yelling words for deaf people

whispering in the graveyard
to jane doe who shares a grave
with her lady lover

            a car crash in 1955
            is an alarm clock
            for the court house
            in 2012 we were 23

                        and counting the memories
                        of life we have yet to meet

                        washing our feet—
                       
                                    is satan on our sticky side?

i will not say we are better than him—

perhaps homeless is the way to go
but i’d rather have a bed
to make with you some mornings

when we have retired
and are raising sheep

            herding our flock
            through valleys older
            than god’s word

                        worth its weight in hand grenades—

for how could we be any other way?

i will keep to you so long
as death smiles at us in calm affection.